Saturday, December 18, 2010

My Propensity to Believe - My Pain is Just Too Real

A few days ago, you let me believe in the propensity of human beings to do good 'as perceived'.

Why don't you allow me faith in the propensity of life to be, at the very least, just?

Why do you let good people suffer, while spoiling the corrupt to wallow in their glorified sins?

Why, why, WHY???!!!!!!!

You've pulled a shroud over everyone's eyes. You've tipped the scales of the universe, causing any return to equilibrium a miracle attributable to your omni-ence.

You're a charlatan. A fake.

And it hurts.

It really hurts.

It hurts because you may not be as represented by the perverse minds of religion.

It hurts because you may not have our common human mentality in which we function and understand.

It hurts because you may not even exist.

And then what?

Do we blame it on chance? On contingency? On luck?

Do we curse biology? Chemistry? Pollution? Free radicals?

What?!

You tell me.

What.

I don't want it to end. It shouldn't end like this. No one deserves it. Especially one who doesn't deserve it.

How could you?

How could you????

HOW COULD YOU??!!






It hurts.

It really hurts.

It hurts because ultimately,

There's no one to blame.

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